I don't know what to do....!?

I totally 100% agree with the advice given to you by Tambra. Telling your counselor and/or parents exactly what you wrote on here is the best thing you can do. You can tell them your concerns about the upcoming plans as well and maybe they can still go as planned. I am impressed with your willingness to seek out and accept the help you need. And remember... If your upcoming plans have to be shuffled around a little to get your healing started... It will be fine... You are what matters most.